Merry Christmas!

For He (Jesus) came into this world to save sinners, so that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life. Wishing all my dear readers a blessed Christmas. New year will bring along a few posts. Yes, resuming the blog! :)

Notice of Closure!

Hello dear readers!


I hope you have a nice time reading my articles and poems. I hope they interest you and helps you in some manner. Due to few reasons, I'm being pushed into the decision of closing this blog. I won't be deleting it, just that i won't be active anymore. I thank you for being a part of this My World series.

I'm not gonna end it completely, as my life is meant to be shared, but I need a pause for now.This is going to be winter in this World, but seasons change.

Special mentions to visitors from Kingston upon Thames, England and Varodara, Gujrat, I find you are regular visitors. Everyone else, if you wish to keep updated with my further ventures, you can drop me an email at abhijeetkhan@gmail.com.

I hope to keep you entertained in the future too. Remember me till then! have a nice time! :)

Emotional Fools

My oldest and best poem ever. Inspiring people since 5 years. Thanks to Harsh Soni for saving it! 

This is a treasure!

We are those,for whom there is none;

we are those for whom there is the only One;

We are those,still crying in our hearts;

YES,We are those 'Emotional fools'

No reason to cry,no reason to sigh,

no reason to die,no reason to lie,

no reason yet to be...

One of those 'Emotional Fools'

In our dark days when we want to die,

We ourselves lie for not to die;

in our dark days when we want to live our lives to the fullest,

we experience the moments dullest;

Yes,we are those Emotional fools!!

Still trying to cry I don't know why?

Still trying to live and not to die!!

Still trying to cross the island of pain to reach,

the sea of mirth, Again;

Still trying not to be....

...one of those 'EMOTIONAL FOOLS'

Reason

I’ve been waiting to write this since long. I never could have time or words to write about the following. But the most important factor was I never had a reason to write it. Today I have one. The reason is: closure of this blog. Yes this blog will be closed following this post but I will give a last treat to my dear readers with the best poem I ever wrote.

Here it goes: (Some part was written earlier, a little now.)

Life, as we call it, seems quite funny to me. Well, most of the times. What are we doing here? Sitting somewhere on a blue planet? Which is some miles away from very special star! That is nothing more than a speck of dust in this vast universe!!!? Feeling small already? (Some would surely say No!) Here’s more.. Compared to few stars in the galaxy, the Sun is nearly nonexistent! And around the nonexistent star revolves a planet named Earth, tiny compared to the Energy provider! And on that vast planet in your view, you can’t even see yourself at the magnification of the best cameras located on satellites! So here comes the question, what are you doing in this place in this unimaginably massively vast Universe? If you are a believer of some deity, god or some supreme power, you would admit there is a plan. If you are an atheist, you would have hated the previous sentence and would say, “WTF! Who cares! I’d do what I want with my @$#^% life!” (No offence) Well, there are few other kinds too.  Here I’d like to say, I’m a believer of Christ. I carry a scientific emotion too. And that doesn’t stop me to reason.

 

And that is what I’m going to share here. Reason. What are we here for?

I’ve been exploring to find out the reasons people have about their lives or reasons to do things they are doing. I’ve asked people, randomly, what they want to do, what they feel about life, about people they meet. Some are funny; some are dumb that you don’t wanna hear them talk, others inspire them. While some talk from the graves. I frankly don’t know what I’m writing now, just pouring myself, apologies if I drift away. Many of us have found the paths early in their lives. Here I talk of the paths what everyone feel is; career! No my dear friend, life is too precious to be confused with career.

I have been put to a lot of self realization in the past few years. Somebody woke me up from the slumber I was in and gave me a light. Showed me the path to true living. I have been analyzing everything about myself since then. I might not have found the ultimate reason for my life, but I’ve found few for sure. This post says it all.

My role in this world, in people’s lives has now been quite clear to me. With all my experiences, I know it now. I’m the kind of person who tends to reflect back who you are to me. Many times I try to be harsh, but then mostly I don’t want to hurt anyone. I believe, loving is the best thing you can do to someone. And that I’m good at. I believe the reason I’m placed in somebody’s life is that they is some unfinished business with them that only I can do. Some incompleteness is what I can brief it as.

I’m close to many people in my life, many consider me as their best friend, because I understand them that well, but not everyone has been that close to me, ever. Except one. That person changed me, and showed me my true self. Blessed be the one. Many people came became close, and I happened to bring in a change in their life. And I feel that when the certain part of them is completed, they slowly drift away. The person who changed me also did! This has happened so many times now that it’s become a habit to me. No exceptions to that.

Now I know what I have to do. I’m an idea, a feeling. I do not wish to exist as a person in someone’s life. The very same people are there not just because they need me, but because I need them too. I stay away from being too attached to people, don’t want to repeat the pain I had once! It’s better that way. And now I know that when everyone has to go at some point, it’s better not to be too close. People come, they stay, and then they leave. And I find a reason of my life, of me being here, in this world, is to accommodate them when they’re lonely.

Everyone needs a place where they can feel safe and be they way they want, feel like home. And that place; feeling is called as ‘Me’.

Signing off, Mr. Khan.

Deserted

Lost in the darkness of the night,

Deserted in the crowd of my thoughts,

The words fall empty, and noiseless,

Breath loses its pace in this whirlpool.

Paths change tracks and crossroads fall often,

Not a reason left to move ahead,

Nor a drop to quench this thirst,

Worn in the scorching heat of words.

Mind seeks to be brimming full, while;

The heart needs a silent flow, outward.

Words are just a way, but destinations;

They are hazy, far away, and hard to reach.

Hope loses itself each time, lost in the chaos,

These paths will always remain the same,

To rise and pass this pain is to conquer;

The self within, to win, myself back.

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Caged

Caged in the web of my own dreams,

The spaces get smaller it seems,

The darkness around smiles,

Terrified, I’m, fighting these yokes holding me.

Nobody can save but just that One,

Where have you gone, I feel alone.

I won’t fear the valleys of death, for You live,

But these surroundings, sadness weave.

In the broken hearts, You come to live,

But these realities, these, do deceive.

Waiting for your arms to hold me close,

May in the calmness I lead a silent doze.

OH beautiful! Come to me, mend this heart,

It’s been hurt with those emotional darts.

My Savior reigns, I still need words comforting,

Hold me long, and heal these wounded wings.

 

caged_bird_by_meijeanie

Impossibly Alone

In the lives of few, you wish,

To have a sound journey,

And let the anomalies pass,  

You are stranded alone.

Seconds from the times you wish you never had,

To the point of horizon blank,

You shudder inside, to the thoughts,

Iridescent

And deface the entire world blooming.

Hard words, empty thoughts, and crazy feelings,

Bump you on the ground and the spirit broken,

They leave the words untold, and silences rule.

The crazy world begets in you.

Left in deepest thoughts are you now,

Trying to understand what the words,

The feeling means, the truths scare you,

And you are left, stranded, impossibly alone.  

Drive Safely!

Some incidents change your life, some moments make you into a new being, while others silently drift away. Driving is my passion, I love to drive, getting to know the machine and able to churn out the most of it is the best feeling for me. Sometimes roads can be bad. Sometimes, you are guilty for the way you drive. Not an article which will change you, but surely make you think, and maybe curse me.

Driving on the streets of Nagpur is a circus in itself. People can shock you from any end. Today while driving in the busy streets of an area called Dharampeth, I met with a moment that crept guilt in me. I was on way to a bus stop, to drop off a friend. Now in the busy circle of driving and talking with him, a sudden jolt came in the mind when I saw a person aggressively jump in to the busy road on his bike to cross to the other side.

Now this man really brought me back on the road, and I had to drift my vehicle towards the left in order to save myself from his advancing stance. Little did I notice that there was a woman driving on my left side, who too had to then push herself to the left. We almost collided, but both saved themselves. Next moment I see her braking and her vehicle drift on the left, thanks to the wet road due to the drizzle going on. I thought she;ll manage, and as soon as the thought ended, I heard a loud voice. A guy shouting out from somewhere, my cornered vision still on the woman's vehicle.

I simply accelerate a little in order to make way and I see her dashing against a pearl white Honda car. *JOLT* and *HURT*
Now that blow was bad, she dashed her left side on the car, bumped and fell on her right. It was all happening in such a slow motion! I was tending to stop and was brought to my senses my my friend's voice to let go and leave. I did not stop. Guilt.

Next in my mind was hope she didn't get hurt much. The blow seemed to be hard, plus I guess her fingers must have hurt the car first. I can't blame anyone for that, it was a slow observation but quick reactions. All I pray is hope that lady is well. And a word of advice.  It's not just you on the road, a little roar to your bike can make people loose control.  Drive Safely.

A Day with a New Twist!

Nothing much of my regular articles, just a weird day for me! Felt like sharing. 

And today began as unusual as it could! Me waking up at 5.30am! I had to pick up a guest arriving to Nagpur for a college event. It was kinda late and I was thinking of taking a bath, but then just had a shave and left for the airport. Now I was expecting to get a cab booked for the guy to take him to my place. The cab and the auto guys were saying exorbitant rates so I was in a mess until the guy, Mr. Arun Raj, a person with the weirdest ascent but a dhasu personality. He said he would be fine on my vehicle. So I drove him telling him about Nagpur all the way. A really cool guy, a traveler, a foodie and a great human being!

Now we were at my home, welcoming and all, we had talks on so many things! I made a little breakfast for him, plus my mom had her Cholla-Bhatura ready! He was quite impressed on the food! Later, we got all dressed up and waited for the pick up to arrive. We were discussing a little stuff and the radio was quite a pain in the arse. Also the so called AC didn’t work quite well.  Finally we reached college and the gala time began, all running around stuff. He had to give a presentation for which the Principal, on chair asked me to pull the screen down, which I took a bit literally. It was motorized, and I just pulled it with my hand!

So after the presentation we have a little one on one conversation, it was pretty nice to hear everybody! Esp. Mr. Ankit Kumar who didn’t utter a word! Now we were back into the boring forum activity, with really boring songs, pretty well sung though! In a while we planned to leave the college. We suddenly were headed to my friend’s place, who is the EWB GHRCE Chapter President. Te guy hadn’t slept for 30+hrs so did take a little nap on way. We took a really awesome meal in there and talked about food! All kinds of food! And Mr. Arun, being a food junkie, was enjoying every bit of it! We later took in an auto and headed to my place.

Here comes in showing all my major stuff to him. I showed him the bike I was working on, explained my research in detail and finally after a short meet with my aunt, we headed to the airport. On way, it started to drizzle, I thought we’ll make it, but it was so heavy in a min that I got drenched, dripping wet by the time we reached. 3^rd time in two days I got wet! Seems I’m gonna catch a cold! So better get into a blanket! :D

Next article coming up: Rise of the machines.