I have a bad habit: I don’t write much. There
are so many instances that have been piling up my head to occupy space in this
blog. But, then it requires absolute peace for me to write. The sad part is,
the times when I have peace, I don’t have my laptop; while the most times I
have my laptop I don’t have a peaceful mind. Tonight, I’m travelling from
Nagpur to Mumbai. I cried after a long time. Going back to the place where I
came to understand my dreams; possibly to make them true – Somehow! This is
another experiment I’m doing with my life. An experiment that might fail or
might succeed. How I love this uncertainty of life. I didn’t set out with a
proper theme for this article to write, I’m going to blabber this time. Just
put out thoughts running in my head.
I love travelling. I love Mumbai. I moved to
this city two months back and the excitement to move to a new place has turned
into missing my home to an equal magnitude. I’ve done a whole lot of things in
past – research work, teaching, entrepreneurship, what not! But now I’ve come
down to this city of dreams to know something, understand the working of cosmos
- by testing myself. The world is a beautiful place, you can only wonder about
its vastness. There are some lines that I have written; but now deleted.
There are some questions I want to answer and
write about them soon. Before that fire cools down. One of them is about the
online revolution; Are we more open and connected with people from all over the
world or we have truly made ourselves distant from the people in the real
world? I am in dual minds, but I prefer dealing with real people. There was
this sentence I read somewhere, ‘It is better to have one real person to know
in the world than to have a 1000 followers on twitter!’ This statement will be ironic to several
people.
Second, I wish to write about my travel
experiences – One which I took from Jalna to Mumbai a couple of weeks ago. That
was when I had to attend the marriage of my brother and while returning had a
horrible experience of travel. For the first time in my life had slept in the
luggage section of a train – enclosed in a 6*2*3 volume box for the night.
Following day attending office in that aching state. The other travel is the
recent one – Two nights back; from Mumbai to Nagpur – travelled in the sleeper
coach after ages. High amount of struggle and shivering in the December cold.
I want to write about my love of Physics and
the places I want to go – on the top is – Space! Maybe Mars even someday. I
have a dream like everyone does; the path is unknown, the journey
unpredictable. And now realizing there is a lot of ‘I’ in this article. I
sometimes feel a bit self-obsessed; but then the people I meet, interact with,
take life lessons from me. A twenty-three year old guy! People say I have a lot
of potential, that I am special, I never felt it to that magnitude as others
exclaim. There are moments that define life for me; extracting life lessons out
of most situations is my hobby. Stage is life for me. The most lessons I have
learned I share it with people who show the requirement for it. For a person my
age, I might be too philosophical.
There is a very little part of life that has
come to my vision, and there is so much to know. There is so much to learn. So
much to grow. Explore. Live. Love. The way I’ve been treated by the people I am
normally around; I feel like a celebrity. Not boasting, just a thought. There
is a gap that needs to be filled by me. Well, there are so many gaps! Life is
taking huge twists. I feel like the water droplet in the shimmering sea I look
at each day during my lunch time. That drop, living in the huge endless sea,
shines not by its own but by the reflection of the sunlight painting a
magnificent picture.
There is so much to do. So much to achieve. So
many lives to live. But my time is limited. I have this feeling – that, that
time allotted for me is too less. Well, I’ll leave you here. Wanting for more
of me, asking me to write more, and pestering me so that I WILL. But I will end
this with three words, I love to call this phase of my life –
Learning. Living. Loving.
