The Mind Freak

The mind is a being in itself. One of the most complex organs of the human body is the brain. In fact, it is one of the most complex cellular structures in the human body. The one and a half kilogram of muscle mass controls the rest of your bulky body and keeps it going through all the life. Stuffed with millions of nerve cells, this so called brain is a weapon of destruction and also an answer to peace. All that we see in this man made world is a result of what he thought and put into action. From Nuclear weapons to Save Earth initiatives, everything has been born out of the human mind, each one blessed with the same amount. Now we can’t forget that there is a Supernatural Being who made it. I’m a believer. Period.

It plays just like this!

The Brain, the mind, are they the same, or just some hypothetical creation or a thought process? Every word written in this article is the result of hundreds of nerve cells sparking in the very right fashion and passing on signals to my fingers to do something.  And this mind, it has got all the things science can’t define. Not even the mind itself. But we live in a world higher than just defined laws and theories.

The mind plays terrible games with us. It has some crazy ideas of its own and we work as puppets. The mind is a being in itself. We are helpless towards it. It makes us do things we never wished, never wanted. We tend to become what we are not. The craziness, the exceptional capabilities that sometimes occur are beyond the limits we even thought of. The world goes upside down and we behave like strangers in our own lives knowing not what to do, when, what and where!

You get locked up in a world so unknown that it’s hard to know what goes on around and about you. You become all crazy and nonsense stuff is spewed out of your mouth. The aggressiveness, the maniac acts, the cravings, the not-my-normal-stuff are a result of an excited or disturbed mind. We do things we aren’t proud of afterwards, and in some cases, knowing the regret will haunt later on, we still do things. Because the state, the time, the mind; it escalates you to the level of doing things. Sometimes this craziness is beneficial, but when it takes the longer route it messes up the life. The mind becomes your foe and there is a chess strategy set up inside of you.

Many of us are control freaks who like to keep all ends tied up. I’m a similar kind of person, trying to plan everything. But then you learn that plans hardly work; in the back of my mind, while planning, I’m sure that most of it won’t go as I’ve planned or been thinking. But then that is what adds the surprise element in your life. But for a little assurance, you can’t stop making plans, and sometimes you need to lose that, else a duality springs. Each of us has a dual nature, the Yin-Yan, the White-Black, the Light-Dark nature, whatever you wish to call it. We are in constant fights with the other self within us. God has given one power, the power of Choice. We become what we choose in life.

When we are in situations from the slightest dual thoughts (comparison) to a waging war of the right or wrong in the decisions of your life, the mind sometimes slips in a small thought which might create havoc. The only way out of it is to keep your mind on leash and not let the ‘mind over matter’ effect flourish. The mind is an entity which can make you or break you. For it is a weakness, and imperfection, live it, and grow out of it, the mind will always be there, you need to control that.

Out of hallucinations, haunting, and a freaked out mind, these words flash. Courtesy: The Mind Freak.

GG: Life Tracked!

2006: An Electronics and Telecommunication Engineer admitted in a reputed college of the city. This guy lived in a single room apartment with a brain craving for knowledge and hands waiting to fiddle with all the components seen in the textbooks. Great visions of changing the state of students around him and the people that he notices in a state much worse than he is, live in his eyes which still remain unfulfilled. 

The journey begins with a milestone in the form of a workshop conducted in SRKNEC in December 2008. This was a hands-on workshop on robotics which cajoled the ambitious mind of this individual. The constant dreams of delivering a kindling entity in this world had found a reality. Work started with LARE after the workshop, in which majority of the attendees were pulled by this lone guy. Enjoying every bit of the work from organizing to teaching was one great phase.

In the winter of 2009 when each student was buzzing and preparing for the interview by the first company of the season, Tata Consultancy Services, this individual was ready with his small box of electronics which he had been working on since 2 years. Selected by the HR with a salary of 3.25 lacs the only reason being the depth of knowledge he possessed about wireless networks and his small kit. A happy individual comes out of the door, satisfied with the secure future he just unlocked.

The well known late work call by TCS drove this man to the busy streets of the City of Dreams; Mumbai. He worked with the firm from May to September 2010. Letting his mind go miles ahead and the power of the resources available made his dreams much bigger. With the sudden call letter, he rushed to the land of Gandhi on 23^rd September. A three-month training session had begun at TCS, Gandhinagar. Exploring the new world, and embracing the new work culture, a hardware guy working on software is still a nightmare which he initially went with a positive mind. Moving back to the City of Dreams, Mumbai on 3^rd November 2010, and the big play began.

Roaming in the seven offices of TCS looking for a permanent place to work took some time. After finally being placed in Powai Branch, training on Business Objects for 5 days started which at no level in future was useful. Then a SAP BI (Business Intelligence) & BW (Business Warehouse) training for a month began for TRENT project which meant a lot of pdf reading, with no system provided. Even a look at the software was which was being read never happened for a month.

He then voluntarily gave up the project which did simply no good except for adding frustration in life. After giving in company interviews for 5 more companies, he finally got placed in a project by Warner Brothers Inc. This was a Report Migration project which was replacing the old format with new files. All this was called as Excel Comparison and Data Matching in a true technical lingo. This phase existed from 5^th February 2011 to 8^th June 2011.

After a lot of struggling with personal and professional issues and an engineer living without a laptop, he tried to continue his tryst with the life he choose, he paved his way through the densities of life. Finally settled in Sony Pictures Entertainment since June 2011, he tries to enjoy the minor enhancements and data testing at his workplace. 

One wonderful senior and a great human being, Mr. Gaurav Gupta better known as GG still motivates us inspires us to keep doing the good work. With all this around him, and an  unsatisfied career, he quotes, ‘Still happy on every last day of the month (Salary day) :-)’

 Hats off to him! 

Merry Christmas!

For He (Jesus) came into this world to save sinners, so that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life. Wishing all my dear readers a blessed Christmas. New year will bring along a few posts. Yes, resuming the blog! :)

Notice of Closure!

Hello dear readers!


I hope you have a nice time reading my articles and poems. I hope they interest you and helps you in some manner. Due to few reasons, I'm being pushed into the decision of closing this blog. I won't be deleting it, just that i won't be active anymore. I thank you for being a part of this My World series.

I'm not gonna end it completely, as my life is meant to be shared, but I need a pause for now.This is going to be winter in this World, but seasons change.

Special mentions to visitors from Kingston upon Thames, England and Varodara, Gujrat, I find you are regular visitors. Everyone else, if you wish to keep updated with my further ventures, you can drop me an email at abhijeetkhan@gmail.com.

I hope to keep you entertained in the future too. Remember me till then! have a nice time! :)

Emotional Fools

My oldest and best poem ever. Inspiring people since 5 years. Thanks to Harsh Soni for saving it! 

This is a treasure!

We are those,for whom there is none;

we are those for whom there is the only One;

We are those,still crying in our hearts;

YES,We are those 'Emotional fools'

No reason to cry,no reason to sigh,

no reason to die,no reason to lie,

no reason yet to be...

One of those 'Emotional Fools'

In our dark days when we want to die,

We ourselves lie for not to die;

in our dark days when we want to live our lives to the fullest,

we experience the moments dullest;

Yes,we are those Emotional fools!!

Still trying to cry I don't know why?

Still trying to live and not to die!!

Still trying to cross the island of pain to reach,

the sea of mirth, Again;

Still trying not to be....

...one of those 'EMOTIONAL FOOLS'

Reason

I’ve been waiting to write this since long. I never could have time or words to write about the following. But the most important factor was I never had a reason to write it. Today I have one. The reason is: closure of this blog. Yes this blog will be closed following this post but I will give a last treat to my dear readers with the best poem I ever wrote.

Here it goes: (Some part was written earlier, a little now.)

Life, as we call it, seems quite funny to me. Well, most of the times. What are we doing here? Sitting somewhere on a blue planet? Which is some miles away from very special star! That is nothing more than a speck of dust in this vast universe!!!? Feeling small already? (Some would surely say No!) Here’s more.. Compared to few stars in the galaxy, the Sun is nearly nonexistent! And around the nonexistent star revolves a planet named Earth, tiny compared to the Energy provider! And on that vast planet in your view, you can’t even see yourself at the magnification of the best cameras located on satellites! So here comes the question, what are you doing in this place in this unimaginably massively vast Universe? If you are a believer of some deity, god or some supreme power, you would admit there is a plan. If you are an atheist, you would have hated the previous sentence and would say, “WTF! Who cares! I’d do what I want with my @$#^% life!” (No offence) Well, there are few other kinds too.  Here I’d like to say, I’m a believer of Christ. I carry a scientific emotion too. And that doesn’t stop me to reason.

 

And that is what I’m going to share here. Reason. What are we here for?

I’ve been exploring to find out the reasons people have about their lives or reasons to do things they are doing. I’ve asked people, randomly, what they want to do, what they feel about life, about people they meet. Some are funny; some are dumb that you don’t wanna hear them talk, others inspire them. While some talk from the graves. I frankly don’t know what I’m writing now, just pouring myself, apologies if I drift away. Many of us have found the paths early in their lives. Here I talk of the paths what everyone feel is; career! No my dear friend, life is too precious to be confused with career.

I have been put to a lot of self realization in the past few years. Somebody woke me up from the slumber I was in and gave me a light. Showed me the path to true living. I have been analyzing everything about myself since then. I might not have found the ultimate reason for my life, but I’ve found few for sure. This post says it all.

My role in this world, in people’s lives has now been quite clear to me. With all my experiences, I know it now. I’m the kind of person who tends to reflect back who you are to me. Many times I try to be harsh, but then mostly I don’t want to hurt anyone. I believe, loving is the best thing you can do to someone. And that I’m good at. I believe the reason I’m placed in somebody’s life is that they is some unfinished business with them that only I can do. Some incompleteness is what I can brief it as.

I’m close to many people in my life, many consider me as their best friend, because I understand them that well, but not everyone has been that close to me, ever. Except one. That person changed me, and showed me my true self. Blessed be the one. Many people came became close, and I happened to bring in a change in their life. And I feel that when the certain part of them is completed, they slowly drift away. The person who changed me also did! This has happened so many times now that it’s become a habit to me. No exceptions to that.

Now I know what I have to do. I’m an idea, a feeling. I do not wish to exist as a person in someone’s life. The very same people are there not just because they need me, but because I need them too. I stay away from being too attached to people, don’t want to repeat the pain I had once! It’s better that way. And now I know that when everyone has to go at some point, it’s better not to be too close. People come, they stay, and then they leave. And I find a reason of my life, of me being here, in this world, is to accommodate them when they’re lonely.

Everyone needs a place where they can feel safe and be they way they want, feel like home. And that place; feeling is called as ‘Me’.

Signing off, Mr. Khan.

Deserted

Lost in the darkness of the night,

Deserted in the crowd of my thoughts,

The words fall empty, and noiseless,

Breath loses its pace in this whirlpool.

Paths change tracks and crossroads fall often,

Not a reason left to move ahead,

Nor a drop to quench this thirst,

Worn in the scorching heat of words.

Mind seeks to be brimming full, while;

The heart needs a silent flow, outward.

Words are just a way, but destinations;

They are hazy, far away, and hard to reach.

Hope loses itself each time, lost in the chaos,

These paths will always remain the same,

To rise and pass this pain is to conquer;

The self within, to win, myself back.

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Caged

Caged in the web of my own dreams,

The spaces get smaller it seems,

The darkness around smiles,

Terrified, I’m, fighting these yokes holding me.

Nobody can save but just that One,

Where have you gone, I feel alone.

I won’t fear the valleys of death, for You live,

But these surroundings, sadness weave.

In the broken hearts, You come to live,

But these realities, these, do deceive.

Waiting for your arms to hold me close,

May in the calmness I lead a silent doze.

OH beautiful! Come to me, mend this heart,

It’s been hurt with those emotional darts.

My Savior reigns, I still need words comforting,

Hold me long, and heal these wounded wings.

 

caged_bird_by_meijeanie

Impossibly Alone

In the lives of few, you wish,

To have a sound journey,

And let the anomalies pass,  

You are stranded alone.

Seconds from the times you wish you never had,

To the point of horizon blank,

You shudder inside, to the thoughts,

Iridescent

And deface the entire world blooming.

Hard words, empty thoughts, and crazy feelings,

Bump you on the ground and the spirit broken,

They leave the words untold, and silences rule.

The crazy world begets in you.

Left in deepest thoughts are you now,

Trying to understand what the words,

The feeling means, the truths scare you,

And you are left, stranded, impossibly alone.  

Drive Safely!

Some incidents change your life, some moments make you into a new being, while others silently drift away. Driving is my passion, I love to drive, getting to know the machine and able to churn out the most of it is the best feeling for me. Sometimes roads can be bad. Sometimes, you are guilty for the way you drive. Not an article which will change you, but surely make you think, and maybe curse me.

Driving on the streets of Nagpur is a circus in itself. People can shock you from any end. Today while driving in the busy streets of an area called Dharampeth, I met with a moment that crept guilt in me. I was on way to a bus stop, to drop off a friend. Now in the busy circle of driving and talking with him, a sudden jolt came in the mind when I saw a person aggressively jump in to the busy road on his bike to cross to the other side.

Now this man really brought me back on the road, and I had to drift my vehicle towards the left in order to save myself from his advancing stance. Little did I notice that there was a woman driving on my left side, who too had to then push herself to the left. We almost collided, but both saved themselves. Next moment I see her braking and her vehicle drift on the left, thanks to the wet road due to the drizzle going on. I thought she;ll manage, and as soon as the thought ended, I heard a loud voice. A guy shouting out from somewhere, my cornered vision still on the woman's vehicle.

I simply accelerate a little in order to make way and I see her dashing against a pearl white Honda car. *JOLT* and *HURT*
Now that blow was bad, she dashed her left side on the car, bumped and fell on her right. It was all happening in such a slow motion! I was tending to stop and was brought to my senses my my friend's voice to let go and leave. I did not stop. Guilt.

Next in my mind was hope she didn't get hurt much. The blow seemed to be hard, plus I guess her fingers must have hurt the car first. I can't blame anyone for that, it was a slow observation but quick reactions. All I pray is hope that lady is well. And a word of advice.  It's not just you on the road, a little roar to your bike can make people loose control.  Drive Safely.